Favorite Album

I think my favorite album will still be Queensryche’s “Operation: Mindcrime.” This album is filled with such incredible music, amazing lyrics, and a truth of the depravity of humanity. This rock opera-esque concept album details the fall of drug addict Nikki who is swayed by his radical group of dealers to do their bidding – which largely includes or revolves around various assassinations and ensuring the growing addiction of the people of the city. When Nikki is charged with killing the ex-prostitute nun he has fallen in love with he refuses, so the group does it anyway and lets him take the blame. I love the raw humanity and the revealing nature of society’s flawed nature here.

Daily writing prompt
What’s your all-time favorite album?

Life Without Music

In a word, life without music would be atrocious. I am a dedicated lover of music – almost as much as I love literature, if we’re being honest. I listen to music from cultures all around the world, from time periods as old as we have record of, and with little to no discrimination. Granted, there are some types of music I can barely stand listening to (looking at you modern country), even those are sometimes better than no music. I take a lot of inspiration for my writing by listening to music. I even find that different types of music inspire and assist me in getting into the right mindset for different genres and different tones. Knowing what I want to write can help me in many ways to pick and choose the right music to keep the mood up and flowing as well. Likewise, in the car (if I’m not listening to an audio book) I have to have music playing. I rarely embrace real silence in the world. Even nature, to me, is a sort of music. So, life without it would be indescribably hard to fathom.

Daily writing prompt
What would your life be like without music?

A Nefarious Encounter

I recently got to sit down and watch the movie “Nefarious” for the first time. I’ve had it on my radar for a while and, as a fan of Sean Patrick Flanery, I knew I had to watch it. Now, like I’ve said approximately 8.2 million times before, I am traditionally not a fan of possession films, so I was a little wary of that going in. I knew, of course, the basic premise – that one of the main characters of the film claims to be a demon possessing a host body – but I risked it. And, boy am I glad I did. Talk about a thinker. In order for me to really discuss this movie the way I want to, I’m going to have to go ahead and say there may well be spoilers here, so if you haven’t watched the movie, go ahead and consider giving it a watch before reading on!

From the start, I was invested in the film and the subtle psychological tweaks the demon Nefariamus is able to make to the everyday life of those he uses. Just seeing that soft opening of the doctor adjusting his license before leaving his office and then seeing him go past the window… It honestly took me a second to make sure I saw what I thought I did. That really kind of set me up for the rest of the film. I had to know what was going on from there.

The basic premise of the movie, before I go on, is that a psychiatrist is called in to assess the mental status of a man awaiting the death penalty. The doctor has a handful of hours to talk with accused serial killer Edward Brady and determine if he is sane enough to be executed by the state. Simple enough, right? Well sure, until the inmate in question begins the conversation by saying he is actually a demon possessing Brady’s body (and the kicker from there is that he WANTS to be executed). From there the film takes several twists and turns and pushes the audience through countless instances of turmoil while we see Brady being mentally and emotionally put through the ringer – but is it really because of a demon, or is it a severe case of Dissociative Identity Disorder? That’s the thing to figure out.

Flanery’s acting skills are among the top in my opinion, and this role was one of the best of his I’ve seen. The facial tics and the manner of speaking he gives to both Nefarious and to Brady are awesome. I’m sure it’s not exactly easy to play multiple characters in the same frame, to literally code switch to a completely different personality and mannerism within the span of a few seconds, but he did it flawlessly.

The very nature of the movie was so back and forth and uncertain at times I felt like I was not only watching an amazing performance on film, but that Brady himself may well have been casting that charm over the good doctor as well. To say Brady/Nefarious was the best case of an unreliable narrator I’ve seen in a long time is an understatement. Returning to Flanery’s acting for a moment, though, I have rarely felt legitimately bad for a character like this before. The sometimes subtle, sometimes egregious things Brady goes through lend a lot of credibility to the idea that he is actually possessed – but also that the alternate identity within him could just show such an extreme hatred for the original identity that it would torture itself just to make him feel that same pain. Flanery’s portrayal of a man on the literal verge of mental and emotional break is something everyone needs to see, though. I would honestly put this movie on a list of films aspiring actors should watch in order to learn the craft and hone their emotions on camera/stage.

While a bit spoiler heavy, I won’t completely divulge the ending here. You’ll have to tune in for that (the movie is currently on Tubi and Peacock) and make your own conclusions. I do have to say, though, I came through the movie viewing from the perspective of a believer and a religious mindset and came to one conclusion. After speaking with a friend of mine who is of a different mindset I realized the multitude of interpretations one can come to here. Like I have said before, I am not one for possession films, but part of the genius of this movie is that you really have to pay attention and decide for yourself if that is even what’s happening here.

Because I am a completist at heart, once I realized the book that is mentioned in the movie is actually where the idea came from, I had to read it. The book, A Nefarious Plot, is a fairly fast read, and it can be fairly eye opening. The point of the book is to expose the horrible things humans, particularly Americans, do to one another and to humanity in general, especially from a religious point of view. It is written as though being a manuscript from the demon Nefarious and portends to explain basically how screwed up humans are and how far from God America has fallen. It is, for lack of a better term, religious propaganda, but I can also see the benefit of someone with a non-religious or alternately religious mindset reading it as well. It really does make you think about how crappy people can be to one another, regardless of politics or religion as a whole.

Anyway, if you can’t tell, I highly recommend at least watching the movie Nefarious. It will seriously put you through a mental ringer. Sean Patrick Flanery – you are amazing. No other way to put it. If you have watched the movie or if you decide to watch it based on my recommendation I would LOVE to know what you think. Be sure to comment and let me know!

Leading

I do see myself as a leader. As an educator, a writer, a traveler, and someone who loves to help my fellow man as much as possible, I think that quality is very important. Often in today’s world people confuse being a leader with being controlling and trying to manage or even force people to live a certain way, but that is not the case. In my opinion, being a leader is more about guiding and helping other with strength, knowledge, and experience rather than trying to drive them toward your own idea of what their end should be. Making carbon copies of yourself is not the goal anyone should have in this world. We all deserve to be ourselves, and if you are indeed a leader, it is your responsibility to lead and guide those looking up to you to be themselves and no one else.

Daily writing prompt
Do you see yourself as a leader?

A Legend Passes

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Today is a hard day for nerds the world over, to be certain. Last night we got the news that the one and only James Earl Jones passed into the great beyond. It took me a bit to really process that information. This man has made impressions on so many humans across the span of the last 9 decades it’s not even possible to fathom. Looking back over my own life, there are fingerprints of his influence in every single stage of my development as a human, a nerd, an educator, and more. Jones has done so many phenomenal things, and lent his voice to two of the greatest characters in cinematic history. In this instance I’m talking not only about Darth Vader, but also the mighty king Mufasa.

I can remember from the earliest days of my childhood being wildly obsessed with the Lion King. I had posters, books, toys, a birthday cake, an entire dish set (out of which I still have the bowl) and even cassette tapes of the soundtrack – complete with James Earl Jones voice tracks. To this day I am still wildly in love with the story and message behind this film, not in small part because of the power James Earl Jones instilled through his performance.

To mention the Lion King, I also have to mention The Sandlot. Although his part was small it was still huge. Portraying a figure of startling demeanor but admirable kindness, James Earl Jones yet again was a huge part of my life in this film. Being one of my comfort films growing up, I couldn’t count the times I watched this movie alongside my mother and even my grandmother.

There is no way to ever quantify, in all of the ways I can possibly discuss it, just how much Star Wars means to me, though. I knew of the films and of Jones’s voice in the part of Lord Vader long before I watched the movies, but my first encounter with the films was in 7th grade. I had an art teacher who let me borrow her anniversary edition VHS tapes and I huddled up in my room that weekend and devoured them. Never had I seen anything so visually and mentally stunning. References that I had heard (some of which I knew already) made sense. The culture, the worlds, the LIFE inside of this universe awakened me to even bigger fandoms and more nerdy tendencies than I had ever envisioned. Keep in mind, by this time I was already obsessed with both Wolverine and Spiderman as well as The Lord of the Rings, but this was a presence like nothing I could remember.

Hearing James Earl Jones as Darth Vader, striking down the rebel forces and throwing his weight around with the force was nothing short of astounding. Granted, I know the figure inside that cloak was David Prowse, and I wouldn’t dream of taking the magnitude of that away from him, but the voice of Vader is the thing that has always made me mesmerized by the character. As someone who loves music and sounds, the baritone rumble of that powerful Sith remains to this day one of the most thrilling things to hear throughout these films for me.

I know, of course, that Jones has an abundance of other works, including one amazing film where he and Robert Duvall are half-brothers trying to make peace after a sudden death, the three I’ve mentioned are the ones where he will always live for me. I have Darth Vader figures, games, shirts, memorabilia and more, and there is nothing that will ever scream Star Wars to me as much as Darth Vader (coming out just a hair ahead of Chewy and Yoda, naturally). The world took a huge hit when we lost our Princess in 2016, but now we have also lost our deviant father. Even the Jedi mourned the loss of Vader, and I have no qualms about admitting how much it hurts to know that voice will never speak fresh words on this earth again.

To nerds everywhere, I encourage you to be openly obsessive about the things that bring you joy. Embrace the characters that make you happy. Don’t ever be ashamed of that. I’ve always loved being a nerd, and now I am more proud of that than ever. Today is a day of mourning for us all, so I say to remember the words of Mufasa and always “remember who you are.” Let us raise our lightsabers today in honor of one who paved the way for so many of us and who will NEVER be forgotten. Rest in Peace, James Earl Jones.

MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU. ALWAYS.

Bad Personality

Acting holier-than-thou, judging others, looking down on anyone, and lying. These things are actions and traits that pretty much guarantee I am not going to be your fan. There is no call for being this type of human and I’ve put more than one person in their place for behaving in these ways. I like to live simply and treat others well. Respect goes very far with me.

Daily writing prompt
What personality trait in people raises a red flag with you?

Relaxation

Personally, I find books and music to be among the most sensational forms of external stimulus to help me relax. I usually don’t do anything without some kind of music playing if I can help it. There is always some kind of music playing in my classroom, in my headphones at night, when I write, when I read, etc… These things are immensely relaxing to me. Nothing, though, is quite as relaxing as having a nice conversation and a good hearty laugh with my wife. More often than not we are in tune and our inside jokes keep up grinning. Ultimately, I have a multitude of blessed relaxation techniques (don’t get me started on my video games or moderate addiction to being in nature….), and I couldn’t be more thankful.

Daily writing prompt
How do you relax?

Giving up Words

As a writer, a lover of literature, an English teacher, and a general goofball there are a lot of potential answers to this question. Full disclosure, for those who may not know me in person, I do indeed curse. More than a little. But not quite a lot. If that makes sense. I’m a believer and I do live by faith (I shudder to say that I am religious, because I prefer to say I have a relationship with God) so there is always the conviction by those – particularly of the holier-than-thou crowd- who say you can’t possibly love God if those words come out of your mouth. Granted, the meaning behind words is only assigned by our personal and societal belief and assignment of them. But that’s a whole other subject. Anyway, I’ve done the attempts to give up cursing for lent, and I’ve stopped/cut down a lot as I got older, but there is one of those words in particular I desperately want to stop saying and strike from my vocabulary, but that’s another matter as well.

Today, the big word I think I would love to strike from my mind and my future is a simple one that we all use too much.

CAN’T

It’s a plague upon the world, if I’m being honest. It’s a crutch. One many of us use far too much, as well. I can’t do this, or I can’t do that. I can’t make it work. Some of us, my wife will tell you I’m particularly guilty of this at times in an attempt to disperse future disappointment in myself, actually use the word “can’t” before we even make an attempt. To say we can’t do something, though, is not only showing doubt about our own strengths and the intentions and faith of our creator (or the universe, or fate, or whatever your personal guiding principal is) but it is showing a lack of willingness to put forth the effort.

In a world where so many people have given up their strength and use any and every excuse possible to avoid not only failure but success as well “can’t” is one of the worst enablers possible. I want to do my best to stop saying “can’t,” at least not without making every effort possible first. It might not be the easiest thing I’ve ever done, but it’s something I CAN definitely do.

Daily writing prompt
If you had to give up one word that you use regularly, what would it be?

Face of Horror

Happy Spooky Season, everyone!! I am super pumped to announce that I have been selected to be in the running for this year’s Face of Horror competition! Now, I know competition is pretty fierce for this one, but how stinking cool would it be for an indie horror author to win this!? The prize this year is a meet-up/ghost hunt with Kane Hodder, a photo shoot for Rue Morgue magazine and $13,000. Think how many books I can fund with that!!! Like I said, I know competition is fierce, but any and every vote helps, guys, so please make your vote count! Follow my link below and help push me to the top of this year’s contest! Round one of votes opened yesterday and I’m sitting pretty at number 2, so keep pushing and let’s see if we can’t make the impossible happen!! Please help a horror lover out!!

https://faceofhorror.org/2024/damean-mathews